Although I was disappointed at my father for starting to drink after his second attempt at “rehab”, I never said anything to him about how I felt or how he should stop drinking after he acted like he did not want to drink any longer. So, the day’s went by and after his little binge, he fell off the wagon once again and was drinking every day…well every night.
Here was my justification for this madness. I kept telling myself “at least he is not drinking during the daytime”. I am not proud of this justification, but it worked for me at the time. I guess this was the part where I was still making up excuses for my father because he was still productive during the day.
As he would only drink at night, he would wake up in the morning and the first thing he would do after drinking a cup of coffee was to go to the store and buy more beer for the night. He would still drink about a 12 pack of beer on average a night. However, after his trip to the store, he would look for a job, eat dinner with my girlfriend and I when we would cook and he would even do the yard work.
This was all a shock to me because when he lived a the house by himself, he would have a neighborhood kid cut the lawn for him, he would eat bologna sandwiches every day and he would unproductively sit on the couch. This is when it occurred to me that maybe he did not go out of state so he could stop drinking, he just wanted to re-organize his drinking schedule.