I stayed under the assumption that my father was a just a “normal guy” until i was around sixteen or seventeen years old. I believe that it was during my junior year of high school when I started to really think something was wrong.
Around this time, my dad lost his job. It seemed that everything during this time period was a little extra stressful. Of course it was stressful for both my parents as my mom had tried to work as much overtime as she could and my dad would stay indoors all day working on his resume and applying for jobs. Oftentimes, doing all of this with a glass of whiskey right by his side.
As time passed, my dad started to get more used to the “at home life” and slowly started developing new sleeping habits. Sleeping habits that led to new drinking habits. Slowly, he started staying up later and sleeping in later. He would also start to have the occasional mid-day drink when he would watch television.
During this time claimed to have trouble sleeping. He would tell me that he did not know what was wrong, he would just toss and turn until he gave up trying to sleep, so he retreated to the couch. Of course this “retreat” included having a few drinks. He claimed that the drinking helped him to fall asleep.
I feel that I really tried to avoid the issues at home the best that I could. I started working a part time job, I played baseball, spent time with friends and even started a band with my friends. I did all that I could to avoid home like it was the plague.